"With you, trust comes naturally; you have honor woven into your fabric and that goes a long way when entering new territory in a coach’s office. Something that I learned early on in my sessions with you was that I truly was in the driver’s seat"
🌀 You people-please (even if it means abandoning your own needs).
🌀 You aim for perfection (even though you know it’s impossible).
You don’t really know who you are. You don’t even know that it’s okay to ask that question—or that it’s your right to live according to your own needs and values.
You are walking on eggshells.
As you look around, you feel how foreign you are from others who aren’t constantly second-guessing themselves, who are at ease with being less-than-perfect, and comfortable in relationships where they can let themselves be themselves.
This is a love letter to all those not seen, to all those given the impossible task of being the parent to their parents. Of being the unwilling recipient of their parents’ often bizarre expectations. Of not being seen at all, for the wonderfully complex, unique beings you actually are. As an expert on immature parents, I found clients with the same issues coming in to see me. Like me, they were exhausted. Numb. Constantly overwhelmed, trying to control every facet of their existence.
And finally, to know that you are inherently worthy, to savor another’s worth. It is not enough to know intellectually that you are worthy. You must feel it in your bones. That your greatest gift to the world, the gift that underlies all others, is the next breath you take.
Let’s take it together…start here!.
I arrived at the age of adulthood without the first clue of how to actually, well, “adult.” But along the way, I met my people. And they saw me, as I emerged, visible.
And over the last 25 plus years, I’ve had the profound privilege of fighting alongside my clients. Pulling the damaging lessons of their immature parents out by the root. Going to the intellect, then past the intellect, to the body. The body that shrinks, at the moment you know you’d be better served by standing tall. That surrenders when you need to assert, or shuts others out when you most need to lean into their comfort. I speak to you as one of you, and I see in you the seeds of whom you can become.
When I created my own group for Adult Children of Those with Personality Disorders in 2018, I brought what I understood was needed, according to my clients, and brought in my own somatic exercises…many generations of groups since, I now bring client-approved and -tested course to you!
I arrived at the age of adulthood without the first clue of how to actually, well, “adult.” But along the way, I met my people. And they saw me, as I emerged, visible.
And over the last 25 plus years, I’ve had the profound privilege of fighting alongside my clients. Pulling the damaging lessons of their immature parents out by the root. Going to the intellect, then past the intellect, to the body. The body that shrinks, at the moment you know you’d be better served by standing tall. That surrenders when you need to assert, or shuts others out when you most need to lean into their comfort. I speak to you as one of you, and I see in you the seeds of whom you can become.
When I created my own group for Adult Children of Those with Personality Disorders in 2018, I brought what I understood was needed, according to my clients, and brought in my own somatic exercises…many generations of groups since, I now bring client-approved and -tested course to you!
An initial 50 minute intensive coaching session to hear your story and understand the impact of your emotionally immature or personality disordered parent
3 additional 30 minute coaching sessions, either online or in person, while you take the online course
Full access to my online course, including brief videos, articles to listen or read, comments section for further feedback, and exercises to practice
Text support via Signal between sessions
Full access to my online course, including videos, articles to listen or read, comments section for further feedback, and exercises to practice.
Text support via Signal for six weeks
Ah, the merry prancing of little reindeer hooves! The lighting of the menorah! The parties, the food, the music (not “Grandma Got Run Over by a Reindeer,” necessarily, but maybe some upbeat Gregorian chants, the Etta James version of a tune, some of the more traditional stuff), and the lights! In this season of the darkest days, literally and figuratively, the LIGHTS!!!
What’s not to love?
As a friend of mine recently wrote, she’s been waking up with a real feeling of dread. Sound familiar? Aw heck, let’s name it; most of us have Festive End of Year Trauma, or FEYT. FEYT impacts us all: parties are hell for the socially anxious or introverted, food’s a huge trigger for those of us physically rounder people trying to reframe it as simply nutritive fuel. And drinking? You can go to an AA meeting every day until January 2 and it’s still a struggle. Gift giving is, as a mentor of mine once said about smoking, ubiquitous, an octopus with tentacles aplenty extending into poverty, people-pleasing, shopping in crowds of similarly anxious and angry folks while listening to “Mommy Kissing Santa Clause”, only to know, in advance, your overly expensive choice will not please.
As a colleague of mine, Lorraine, pondered, ” Sometimes I wonder, does gluttony come from secret deprivation? That sense that we will never have enough, be enough?”
And the most important trauma of all, the yearly profound disappointment, even as children, that our dysfunctional families, broken or with only a semblance of intactness, with their fights, tensions, falseness, failure to show up, and pretense covering up a host of wrongs past and present, are never going to bring us joy or togetherness. And each year, Madison Avenue and our buddies at school would encourage us to be hopeful once again.
Well not this year! At some point, we throw in the towel, and once that’s done, it’s very hard to see this season through the eyes of the hopeful child you once were. Personally, I progressed from disappointed child of emotionally immature parents, sufferer big-time of FEYT, to someone who actually enjoys the season. Maybe, in the process, you’ll do or think about things a little differently this year, or at least be a little kinder to yourself. In particular, those of you who grew up in abusive or neglectful homes are really going to struggle with reminders EVERYWHERE of how families SHOULD be. Ow!!!
Until my parents’ divorce, the season, spelled in our Atheist household as Xmas, was fun. While I figured out early on that Santa Claus was a myth (the fake beards gave it away), I totally dug Rudolph. I lived for that story. My mother was four generations removed from her Swedish roots, but that didn’t stop her from embracing her heritage wholeheartedly. Some of you may have listened to Garrison Keillor, and his discussions on Lutefisk (basically, cod cured in lye to complete tastelessness and the consistency of hard gelatin. We got that every year, but we also got lefse (a sort of potato pancake) dripping with butter and sweetened with the tart lingonberry that also dressed the Patatiskorv, or Potato Sausage with unique flavoring (and alas, nowadays, nowhere to be found. This annual Christmas Eve celebration would be followed on the actual morn by a few presents, well chosen, and a yummy breakfast, my parents and older brother enjoying each other’s company. And that was it. We didn’t even begin to think about the holidays until after Thanksgiving.
Then life happened, and the whole season was rife with rivalry and resentment. When I hit the streets on my own, poverty, loneliness, and my lack of ability to form rich, intimate relationships on my own made the period between Halloween and the beginning of the next year a torture. Even after doing my own work, and finding my own community, that dull dread lingered.
It changed one year when my partner came home with a sad story; a family she’d become acquainted with was struggling. Single mother, job lost and ex-husband in the wind, with three children living in a one-bedroom apartment, facing the holidays with NOTHING. Nada. Zip. And she said to me, “let’s buy them Christmas for our present to each other this year.” At that moment I got such a rush, kind of like Ebenezer Scrooge when he wakes up from the third dream and realizes he’s still got a shot at getting in on the holiday spirit. I said yes.
Since then, both in my life and with my clients, I’ve explored ways of turning this season around, and making it work for us.
And if not, there’s always January!
After being in clinical practice for over two decades, I’ve brought my focus to two main areas. I address the needs of adult children of emotionally immature and personality-disordered parents, Defy Gravity, as well as those experiencing overwhelming stress and the revitalization of numbed lives, Overcome Overwhelm.
For each of these areas, Defy Gravity and Overcome Overwhelm, I provide both in person and zoom coaching. The full program for each of these includes both individual sessions with me and an online course which you can access at any time, with no time restrictions.
I also make the online course available on its own, for those who want additional hacks to the existing health regimen they feel confident about.
To understand my approach, it’s also a good idea to read some of my “Deeper Dive” articles.
To be absolutely clear, I do NOT accept clients as a psychotherapist. Some among you may be experiencing clinical-level depression or PTSD, as opposed to the blues or an accumulation of stress. The hybrid model of using my coaching offerings in conjunction to working with a licensed psychotherapist towards a common goal–your ultimate vitality and purposefulness–is highly effective in my experience.
You can immediately sign up for one of my coaching courses. However, if you want a more tailored experience, or have more questions before you take the plunge, scroll down to the contact form below, and send your question. After I respond via private email, we may also hop on a discovery call. You’ll have an opportunity to ask me what you need to know in order to make a well-informed decision, to get a sense of who I am and what I might offer you, and see how comfortable you are in my real or virtual office.
Welcome to coaching! Life coaching is designed for those who want to further enhance their lives. I myself have benefited greatly from other life coaches as I’ve made significant transitions in my life, and have found that, along with clarifying the presenting issue and goal through practical problem solving, parts work (similar to IFS) and narrative therapy, can be extremely helpful.
As I am also a Licensed Massage Therapist, I may also include bodywork for my in person clients at their discretion. Bodywork includes Somatic Experiencing and CranioSacral Therapy to help regulate the body, allowing people to slow down and think more clearly. It also unearths hidden negative beliefs and stressful experiences, where they live, in the body.
My clients may do intensive work for a while, then not see me again for a month or a year, until they want to include my work to once again enhance their health and wellbeing. I absolutely welcome this as-desired (PRN) relationship, and look forward to exploring with you a unique plan that suits your needs.
Show up, on time, ready for the work. If we’re meeting via Zoom, please set yourself up for success! A quiet room, where you will not be disturbed, as well as a solid wifi connection, is best.
I’ll give you something to think about, some activity or exercise to perform, after every session, so that you can bring our work into the life you want to improve. Do it.
If my approach isn’t working for you, let me know. Through my twenty five+ years in practice, I’ve become skilled in multiple areas, so I can certainly adjust my approach to better serve your needs.
Particularly if you struggle to get in, stay in, your body, you’ll find that we work better if we initially build some momentum. It is important that you make time to come on at least a bi-weekly basis. After this, we’ll explore a schedule that works for you. We’ll also check in to see if my approach is right for you.
Recognize that the work we’ll be doing, regardless of which coaching option you’re interested in, is somatic (embodied). It digs deep, and actually impacts your body physically. If you don’t believe that you’re open to somatic work, or that it might be too much for you, be honest. I may not be the right person for you. You decide whether it’s worth a try.
My coaching packages’ fees are listed, with an option to pay over time. Additional coaching, depending on the time you need, is available at $225 per 60 minute hour, $150 per 30 minute half hour. Extended sessions are also available. Extended sessions are also available in 2-hour blocks, including coaching outside the office, and are available at $375
No, but I am willing to create a payment plan for well-motivated clients whom I believe the courses can help.
Feel free to contact me.
You are not broken. You were shaped by people who couldn’t meet your emotional needs—and it’s time to release their grip on your life. This course is your invitation to finally be seen, to reclaim your boundaries, and to live from a place of self-worth—not shame.
My grounding exercise, to help you get centered in your busy day. I’ll occasionally also send special offers and insights (I promise, I won’t deluge your in-box!)